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Yes, it is exactly so (there are no other versions)
it all has left and burned all bridges, my protracted spring,
and arrived — finally — my long awaited ripeness.
Although, yesterday, why did you flicker and jump, why my satiated sly heart,
why did you flicker and jump, as if you’d lost your mind?
I am standing on an April mountain — in a tightly sewed military coat,
I have four lives (reserved), I have a letter from you:
“Hello,” you write, “I am chronically ill,
And I don’t have a life to spare.
Tomorrow I have chemotherapy.
However, I will try to survive — I will fight.
You are around, try to be happy.
Live, be cheerful when you get the chance.
And be afraid of nothing.” So I am trying.